You're a Feeble Reverie …

I was dumfounded by your presence…as you lure me into your spell
You are one soul I ever so apprize…like a voodoo doll you got me so mesmerized
Uncurbed is the character you revered…my adamant mind becomes delicate like how you always makes me feel
Kindred is the spirit that got me hypnotize…as pliable as your face you are volatile personified…

Amidst what seems to be an infinite grief you appeared…you held my hand as I unravel all my fear…
Confounded by your touch…little by little I began to disperse…submerged by the power which you profoundly posses
Your bewildering logic balances my skeptical acumen…your overwhelming kindness asphyxiate my elusive grin
Forsaking my sullen will no longer would I fret…it’s the fresh breath of morning that I anxiously await…

Like the brand new day I sat and remain...for the end of the haunted delusion shortened by an angry fate
I saw the end before it began… all I can give you is this moment or maybe until the setting of the sun…

Your part is only temporary…like most of them you're just somewhat ordinary
You build up a world for which you can’t sustain
You immediately turned your back at the first sign of pain
Furtively I’m relieved…for never have I planned to wait for you in vain

Deliberately, I have let you go…in my free will I released you…
I have renounced that power that controlled me when was with you
Today as I awake I realized…
I no longer need you…


WRITTEN: 12th FEBRUARY 2007

My Four Corners...My Sanctuary...

It’s where I fade…it’s where I drift…it’s where I’m most fragile…it’s where I’m most broken…
It’s where my comfort lies… it’s where I live…it’s where I mostly die…

That old rose color…that faded peach…that dead silver…that’s where I weep…
The ground so still…the seat so stiff…all this rigid frame that surrounds me…all this unrelenting noise that incapacitate me…


These four corners they cradle me… ever so gently they commiserate…undaunted as they savage my sorrows…all these judgment they invalidate…
Respecting my solitude…protecting me from my poignant regrets…
Ten minutes of silence…that’s how long I have wept…

Despite the undertow, I stood with courage and my head held high…

I then declared... once again I'm alive…

But soon after those tear drops dried…
I put on my mask of lie…

So nonchalant on the outside…so shattered inside…
This is where I lie…this is where I hide…
The FOUR corners of my sanctity…FOUR corners of eternal misery…


WRITTEN: 27th JANUARY 2007

Tortured Love...Restless Heart

…your pain is my strength… my strength are your tears…your tears are my laughter…my laughter is your sacrifice…your sacrifice is the life of my soul…my soul is your home…your home is the cave that swallowed me whole…the cave so deep..so strange…your strangeness is my comfort…my comfort is your prison…the prison is where we hide…await for the morning…in the morning we crucify our lies...laugh till we cry...and cry when we die...

...our grave is where the heart arose…the cuts and bruises…so fresh…so raw… i cringe through this painful sight…i resist the chills down to my spine…falling on my knees i held my breath… closed my eyes… i yearn for this feeling… i long for this day…that you and i will both see…how much we had fallen apart…how much damaged we have done… how much pain we have inflicted each other… how much time we have wasted… how much we wanted to be together… how much the truth screams that it will never be…that you and i are better off apart… our love is better apart… for it will grow… distant… but free… free from you and me… free from our curse…free from our cruelty…

...now our love can rest…it will find another pair of heart… this pair shall bring it back to life… this life shall cultivate and strengthen the veins from where the blood runs... so the heart shall continuously beat… this beat shall hold our love together… and together we’ll break the curse…we have come full circle… but it is in this circle that we have raised through it all…and this circle will be our witness as we – once again fall…

WRITTEN: 29th DECEMBER 2005