7 billion people

There are people that are born to serve the community

                Then there are those that dirty up the society

There are people that are born to do a 9-5 job

                Then there are the ones who exist to be just slobs

There are people that didn't have enough time

                Then there are those who spent their life living on the 

                sidelines

There are people that were meant to fight wars

                Then there are those who profit making mortars

There are people that make beautiful melodies

                Then there are those who use them for remedies

There are people that desperately wanted to survive

                Then there are the ones I envy for not being alive

There are people who devote their time trying to analyze

                Then there are those who do not know which value in life 

                they must realize

There are people who sit and ponder

                Then there are the ones who make all sorts of wonder

There are people who write to ease their sorrow

                Then there are the ones who couldn't fight for tomorrow

just because...

just because I'm not sullen
does not mean I am not broken

just because I am broken
does not mean I need fixing

just because I lost someone
does not make me your orphan

just because I accept your sympathy
does not mean I am yours to pity

just because I was never there
does not mean I didn't care

just because I did not play my part
does not mean it didn't hurt

just because I play my songs
does not mean you get to sing along

just because I celebrate life
does not mean I selfishly wanted to thrive

just because I stumbled
does not mean I am crippled

just because I'm not crying
does not mean I'm not grieving

just because....

doesn't always mean...it is

Flake...one great love; one great loss

The day you came into my life was the day I started living
The day I saw your eyes was the day my tears had meaning
The day you sat next to me was the day my heart started racing
The day you came home to me was the day I started loving

Together or apart we had always been a team
At night when I sleep, you tickle me in my dream
There was one time when you begged me for an ice cream
I said “No honey, not until you are sixteen”

You shared my happiness, you defeated my sadness
You offered me joy when my whole being is destroyed
You cradled my laughter and held me when I falter
Yesterday as you left, it wasn’t our happy ever after

One thousand one hundred seventeen days
One thousand one hundred seventeen smiles
One thousand one hundred seventeen butterflies
One thousand one hundred seventeen…is just little number compared to the love you profoundly multiplied

I love you my son, my best friend, my only one….forever and always...
There are two great tragedies in life; one is to gain your heart’s desire and the other is to lose it.
I could not be any more grateful...for you gave me both

♥ Eternally…

Mommy

I Dare You

I dare you to scream
I dare you to dream
I dare you to laugh
I dare you to weep

I dare you to speak
I dare you to listen
I dare you to fear
I dare you to feel



I dare you to make mistakes
I dare you to mend
I dare you to communicate
I dare you to resonate

I dare you to disappear
I dare you to resurface
I dare you to fly away
I dare you to settle

I dare you to remember
I dare you to forget
I dare you to fight
I dare you to surrender

I dare you to love
I dare you to yearn
I dare you woe
I dare you to live

I dare you…
Yes you…
The person in the mirror…
I dare you…

11:11

A fresh face...A new place
An inevitable feeling...A wonderful being
Fallen from grace...Memories erased
Greatly divided by time and space

Short happiness discovered...Infinite sadness unraveled
Countless resounding laughter...A broken smile and it’s all shattered
A void that is filled...A heart that is ill
Bleeding tears only time can heal

A heart set on fire...A mind adamant and in denial
A soul so cynical...A spirit that is ever biblical
A body that dances in the rhythm of her cry
Those longing eyes that haunt her whenever she lies

A slight touch of warmth...A relenting sound of calm
A moment of coldness...Opens the gate of madness
Hesitant arms reach out for a soft embrace
A worried face lights up...Lifted by the sweetest gaze

Fate is too fragile...Distance ever so hostile
A choice so painful...A reality so truthful
A journey that ended on its first chapter
All her feelings...Do they really even matter?

You're a Feeble Reverie …

I was dumfounded by your presence…as you lure me into your spell
You are one soul I ever so apprize…like a voodoo doll you got me so mesmerized
Uncurbed is the character you revered…my adamant mind becomes delicate like how you always makes me feel
Kindred is the spirit that got me hypnotize…as pliable as your face you are volatile personified…

Amidst what seems to be an infinite grief you appeared…you held my hand as I unravel all my fear…
Confounded by your touch…little by little I began to disperse…submerged by the power which you profoundly posses
Your bewildering logic balances my skeptical acumen…your overwhelming kindness asphyxiate my elusive grin
Forsaking my sullen will no longer would I fret…it’s the fresh breath of morning that I anxiously await…

Like the brand new day I sat and remain...for the end of the haunted delusion shortened by an angry fate
I saw the end before it began… all I can give you is this moment or maybe until the setting of the sun…

Your part is only temporary…like most of them you're just somewhat ordinary
You build up a world for which you can’t sustain
You immediately turned your back at the first sign of pain
Furtively I’m relieved…for never have I planned to wait for you in vain

Deliberately, I have let you go…in my free will I released you…
I have renounced that power that controlled me when was with you
Today as I awake I realized…
I no longer need you…


WRITTEN: 12th FEBRUARY 2007

My Four Corners...My Sanctuary...

It’s where I fade…it’s where I drift…it’s where I’m most fragile…it’s where I’m most broken…
It’s where my comfort lies… it’s where I live…it’s where I mostly die…

That old rose color…that faded peach…that dead silver…that’s where I weep…
The ground so still…the seat so stiff…all this rigid frame that surrounds me…all this unrelenting noise that incapacitate me…


These four corners they cradle me… ever so gently they commiserate…undaunted as they savage my sorrows…all these judgment they invalidate…
Respecting my solitude…protecting me from my poignant regrets…
Ten minutes of silence…that’s how long I have wept…

Despite the undertow, I stood with courage and my head held high…

I then declared... once again I'm alive…

But soon after those tear drops dried…
I put on my mask of lie…

So nonchalant on the outside…so shattered inside…
This is where I lie…this is where I hide…
The FOUR corners of my sanctity…FOUR corners of eternal misery…


WRITTEN: 27th JANUARY 2007